Konrin wrote:
I never interacted with you IC but from the one log you posted it seemed like you had horrible RP for a fist, hopefully your next character will be someone more...chaotic (aka at LEAST anarchist alignment), or you pick a different 'flaw'.
Having played a character that took a path that was certainly 'non-convensional' for Fist it's not horrible RP to make such a character concept, so long as you are willing to roll with the consequences of being different/not readily accepted.
It's sad that a player wants to go down a difficult path and gets called out so severely OOC. The real horrible thing that happened here is the tragedy that it seems like a PLAYER is being driven off from playing a character more so than a CHARCTER was being treated as it was deserved in game.
I'll go beat up on my own character, just as some of the comments above remind me of.. well, Amadeo.
Amadeo certainly was "flawed," but it was part of his belief system. Didn't keep me from RPing that struggle on a consistent basis, both internally, within the Church, and the cabal. Sure, it got him into ample Trouble. But the RP was fresh, and the conflict kept the character interesting to play... though there were times I know there were those who would have gladly throttled him/ and/or took a few pot shots at the player along the line, mostly because Amadeo's belief system tended to make things difficult all around at most times. He certainly was someone you loved... (when he finally went away.) It was difficult. His heart was always in the right place, so he was always given some leeway. Unfortunately, it was also always getting in the way of everything.
Anyway, Dmitri - my suggestion is if you're going to play another character 'out of the box' have all the RP in the arsenol to ground yourself and also prepare yourself OOC mentally to handle the guff you'll get for not conforming to the norm. Or do as some others have suggested and find a place to work on something a bit easier where the character's philsophy's actions are more aligned to the alignment/organization you seek.
Best wishes.