Shattered Kingdoms

I feel the same way dude I've been depressed all day because of this and I never OOCly talked to him. I did however interact within in game and to me I suppose thats just as real.

I am deeply saddened by the fact that another person chose to end his life, even more so by the fact that this person was a member of our community. I did not know the man at all, if our characters ever communicated, I would not know either; still, losing a member of this community feels like losing a friend, despite what feelings you might have for anyone. I just realized we started playing around the same time.

My condolences to his family and friends.


-Nashira

My thoughts are with his family and friends.

I've been thinking for the great majority of my day what to write in this thread (the fact that I would write something being a foregone conclusion). What I will say won't make me too many friends, I'm sure, but I think it's important at this stage not to fudge the truth.

OVT, Revin, Brady. He was a dangerous person. He was a bad person. He was a dark person. Here are the few examples of personal interaction I had with him:





This is the OVT I have been exposed to. I have had real, genuine, IRL death threats over this game, many of which came from him. I truly believe that he was a disturbed person, and given that he was willing to take his own life, I must also believe that his threats against me were serious. I genuinely believe he was willing to kill anyone who got in his way - or have them killed.

I want you all to understand that before I continue. OVT was a killer - or at the very least, had the potential to become a killer. I believe this to be true, IRL, one hundred percent, and it chills me.

Regardless of that fact, I agree with the sentiment that for any death, even the death of someone who would happily cause the death of another person, the price must be paid by all of us. The funeral bell doesn't toll for the person who died. They are dead, they are gone. If they exist in any form, it's a form that is well and truly beyond the physical. For those of us who remain though... We lose everything they had to offer. One inspiration, one speech, one comment. Even if one meaningful thing would ever have occured, that's one meaningful thing we've been deprived of.

I'm sorry that OVT died. Not sorry for him, and not necessarily sorry for myself. I feel sorry for everyone who was affected by him in a positive way. Additionally, I feel sorry for everyone whose lives could have been positively affected by him in the future, who never will be.

Very well put, Jardek. That echoes the sentiments of my first post, though spoken far more Eloquently. There was always that element of menace to ovt and it wasn't a spiteful menace, or a hot headed menace. It was just some lifeless calousness that made you believe he could really come get you.

I felt so bad for saying it though. I have alot of mixed feeling about Brady. I mean one the one hand, as I said in my first post, he seemed nuts. I often viewed him as some kind of socially isolated psychotic who did nothing but dump hours and hours into SK. But on the other hand he was sometimes alright you know? I played with him a lot for a while, talked to him in IRC, all that. He was an enigma. Here's one of the last SK related things he had to say, written the 10th of may.



I mean this doesn't sound bad at all. Brady seems like a nice guy here. Then you contrast that with some of the absolutely insane things he's said to you, and you get what I have repeatedly called a 'nutcase'. But at the same time calling D some standoffish stepfather figure, that just flew out of left field at me as very strange. I just can't fully understand, Brady.

In the above post ofcouse we see a young guy who's very enthused about SK. He 'loves' the pbase. You get the feeling he plays SK regularily and is having a fun time. He likes the people he plays with. Then there's that darkside, you know? The side that'll spill your stomache acids into your blood with his rifle and not even think twice about it.

So I have mixed emotions, hence I have two afterlife posts for him. The rest is just responses to other peoples posts. All I can say is it's terrible he's dead but you know, Jardek, and people will hate this alot, at least he didn't take anyone else with him. Some do.

OVT Had made threats on my life as well, a few years back. I just figgured he was only a spiteful and angry kid who found an easy way to vent some rage on someone who was in a far away country from him.

There was no real way for him to find me and come do what he claimed, so he just blurred [REDACTED] like that out. To impress? To shock? To feel better? IDK.

I do no t think OVT was or could have been a killer. Real killers don't make empty threats. They just think and do, and they sure as hell do not commit suicide alone.

Not saying this in OVT's defense, this is just the image I had of OVT.

I've been depressed ever since I read this thread, when I read the title I was hoping it would be some joke, unfortunately it was not.

My deepest condolences to his friends and family.

Revin, you will be missed.

I really am at a loss for what to say. I read this yesterday and still just couldn't bring myself to post. I suppose the only words that will suffice for now are my hopes that wherever he is now, he is at peace and that, in time, the grief of those around him will ebb and the joy he brought in life will be remembered.

Brady made a lot of bad choices, got into a lot of troublesome [REDACTED]. The last myspace bulletin other than the ones about his phone was something to the effect of, "My friends are gone, I've [REDACTED] up, my life sucks." His first and only blog post had this to say:

I wish I was somewhere else. I wish I was free. I wish I could do more with my life. I wish I wasn't in such heavy debt. I wish I could drive. I wish that I could do something with my summer, like travel, go to festivals, get a job, have money [REDACTED] [REDACTED] [REDACTED]. I wish for the girl with black hair and blue eyes. I wish for forgivness from everyone I've ever known. I pray for everyone that I've ever known, will know, or have never and will not know to be forgiven aswell.

Anyone who read these and really knew him IRL should have GOT HIM SOME HELP.

He was weak and took an easy way out. It sucks for his friends and his family and it's good to remember the good things, but Brady at times was an bad, weak person.

Weak? Weak because he couldn't see any other way out of his personal hell? Weak because he fought for years to beat this blackness in his soul? Weak because after years and years of fighting himself he couldn't fight any more? When every fun event in your life is fun while it happens, and 5 minutes later, it's like it never happened, the light swallowed up by the utter blackness in your soul.

That's not weak in my book, it's a deep, inner strength that took years to wear out. It takes guts to keep going and carry a burden like that.

Don't get me wrong, I never knew him, I just know what it's like to feel that way. I'm still here. Does this mean I'm stronger than he was? Or just useless at dying like everything else I'm crap at?

Any further discussion with me on this subject can occur by YIM or PM.

Sorry to see you go OVT, I'll miss you, I understand.